We recently published Emily Rinkema’s brilliant “The Story Where the Mother Dies in Childbirth.”
Here, we ask her two questions about her story:
1) I’m a sucker for a story that’s about a story (or stories, in this case). Bit by bit you reveal Alice to us, as she reveals herself — I love that! Do you think that Alice realizes how much of herself she is truly revealing with these stories? Or does she feel safe because she is only being shown in bits and pieces?
I think that Alice has no idea, consciously, what she’s revealing. Subconsciously, I think she’s working through some pretty deep stuff about what it means to have a mother, to lose a mother, to not have a mother to lose. In her stories, she creates mothers that she then kills off–or kills them off before the stories begin–I imagine her wishing she had known her mother well enough to truly grieve her, if that makes sense, and so she tries out all different kinds of death–detached, slow, sudden, expected–and what it might be like for a daughter to experience those deaths, to be able to grieve in some way. As writers, we don’t need to experience something to feel it–that’s the point of writing fiction, and reading fiction, right?–to be able to experiment with feelings and scenarios and worlds and relationships without actually having to live them. And I think for Alice, she desperately wishes she had a mother to lose, so she keeps creating them and losing them in different ways, believing she can’t grieve something she doesn’t feel she ever had.
2) Of course, I have my own ideas about Alice’s mother and her place in Alice’s life — I think anyone with a mother (that’s pretty much all of us, isn’t it?) will have their own ideas. What is your idea about their relationship?
A few years ago, my husband pointed out that I didn’t have any live mothers in my stories. It made me laugh at the time, and I went back through to see if he was right. He was. With a rare exception, there were no live mothers. My mother died when I was 15, so I knew my mother well enough to grieve her, but I still clearly needed to work through that grief in my fiction.
So many people I know have complicated relationships with their mothers, and watching them lose those mothers at different stages in their lives and through different circumstances, made me think about this particular relationship and how fraught it is for so many reasons. While Alice may not have been able to have a relationship with her mother, I wanted to show that the absence of a mother was equally as complex for her–that in not being there, she was in some ways, always there. There’s a geometrical shape called a gnomon that is a parallelogram with a missing parallelogram in the corner–it’s a shape that is actually defined by what it’s missing. That’s always stuck with me–and I think that’s what I wanted for Alice, that she’s defined by what’s missing.
Ever since my husband pointed out what was likely obvious to others, I have tried to add live mothers into my stories (sounds like a science experiment!). Strangely, all of those stories so far have been about dark, complicated mother-child relationships…seems like I might have some more writing to do to figure out what that’s all about!





