my mother & i ~ by Joy Yin

& we are in another universe & we are both deer, not in the soft, storybook way but in a way that feels wrong, like our nerves have been bundled too close together & we are only antlers on top of heads on top of legs. in this universe, we are painted by frida kahlo, which means we have been pierced by arrows & the blood has stained the canvas too soon. there is no moment before the wound. we enter the world already hurt. the pain is intentional, the arrows placed strategically along our sides to convey some kind of tortured beauty. she stands beside me in the frame, close enough that our injuries almost touch, close enough that it’s hard to tell whose blood is whose. i wonder how she looks so composed.

if i turn my head, it is only because the painter allows it. if she looks away, it is because she already knows how this will end. the forest behind us is symbolic, which is to say it cannot intervene. the blood keeps darkening. later, they will say it’s beautiful how closely we are held. i wonder if they can smell the fear in our eyes.

we are too aware of our legs. we are too aware of our lives. we are too aware that nothing here is meant to change.

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Joy Yin is a writer and poet with three different hometowns. She is the founder and EIC of Lacuna Vox, a youth literary magazine. She loves boba and hopes her words can inspire you to create something new. 

Two Questions for Donna Vorreyer

We recently published Donna Vorreyer’s insightful “I’m Not Sure What to Do Next.”

Here, we ask her two questions about her story:

1) I love, love, love how you capture that heartbroken feeling here, that want to go back to what you had before.That uncertainty of not answering the knocking at the door. Do you think the narrator will ever feel like they know what to do next again?
Honestly, I think the narrator already DOES know. Every action taken in the progression of the narrative makes it seem like the narrator will never get over the loss, even hints at the fact that perhaps the ex isn’t completely done with the relationship, either, But then, in the last line, I believe there is a decision. It would have been easy to let the ex in, but the narrator summons all her nerve and doesn’t do it. So even though there’s a total feeling of being unmoored here, I like to believe there’s an underlying strength through the anger and the sadness. The subordinate structure of “since” implies that the title could be the completing clause, but it also leaves open the possibility for a more certain way to move forward.

2) The narrator finds a looklike for their ex on a dating app! Such a great detail that really demonstrates such a human need here. Did the date have anything in common with the ex outside of looks (signs point to no, but maybe)?
I find it funny that I even came up with that detail since I have been with my husband for 44 years and have never even SEEN a dating app other than on television! But trying to replicate the qualities you’ve lost in someone you cared about is certainly not a new phenomenon, though the technology to facilitate it is. I like to think that looks are the only thing the two men shared, the only reason she went out with anyone at all to alleviate the loneliness that came from being suddenly single. 

I’m Not Sure What to Do Next ~ by Donna Vorreyer

Since you said we were done. Since you walked out with the dog and the French press and the blender. Since you left my text on read and didn’t reply. Since you moved in with a friend who sounded suspiciously like your old girlfriend when I caved and called  you to pick up your Amazon packages. Since you caught me spying on you outside her apartment to confirm. Since you blocked me on Instagram. Since I shredded the rest of your mail. Since you texted me to admit you were staying at your old girlfriend’s place but swore you never cheated on me. Since the sky was the same as it was yesterday, but it seemed different, heavier, ready to drop some great weight. Since I got lonely and swiped right on someone who looked like you. Since you saw me at a bar with your doppelganger. Since I had a few too many Moscow Mules. Since you shook your head as if to judge. Since you wouldn’t stop staring at me over your overpriced Pinot. Since your ex who you said is not your girlfriend got visibly pissed at you for paying attention to me. Since that made me laugh and that made you angry. Since it felt good to make you feel bad but not as good as when I could make you feel happy. Since you left with her, arguing. Since I left alone. Since I took a sketchy Uber home. Since you showed up knocking on my door at two AM. Since I was still up, drunk-watching Squid Games on Netflix. Since it took all my nerve not to let you in. 

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Donna Vorreyer is the author of Unrivered  2025), To Everything There Is (2020), Every Love Story is an Apocalypse Story (2016) and A House of Many Windows (2013), all from Sundress Publications. She hosts the reading series A Hundred Pitchers of Honey and is a co-founder/editor of the new journal Asterales: A Journal of Arts & Letters.

Two Questions for Martyn Pedler

We recently published Martyn Pedler’s explosive “Stretch.”

Here, we ask him two questions about his story:

1) This story starts in such a familiar way, with a narrative trick that we’ve all seen before: “you’ve got to keep the caller on the line so I can trace them.” But then it takes that idea and (my apologies) “stretches” it out. What was your inspiration for this piece?
I think a lot of my short stories begin as a joke: “What if you had to keep someone on the line – FOREVER?” But then I try to take that gag-like setup and shift it into another register, often by taking something to its logical extremes. Here, I was thinking about the familiarity that comes with long-term relationships. After a lifetime on the phone with someone, how would you feel about them? And how empty or numb would you feel if they were suddenly gone?

2) And in the end, our characters (except for the narrator, who has died offscreen) have had a connection for a very long time. Long enough that there’s only certain positions that don’t hurt their hips, long enough that their ears feel “hot and naked” without the weight of the phone. And in the end …. Do you think the caller even remembers why he had a bomb anymore?That’s a good question! I’m also a screenwriter, and so I’m very used to notes about “raising the stakes”. I liked the notion that there’s this unexploded bomb ticking away in the background of the whole story. The trick, I guess, is that it seems like the characters forget the bomb is there, just like (hopefully) the reader does too. When ‘you’ finally ask about the bomb, is it a surprise to you that you’re asking? Or had you been waiting all along to build up enough intimacy to get the truth? In the end, it comes too late to matter.

STRETCH ~ by Martyn Pedler

The only way I can trace the call is if you keep him on the line. That way I can pinpoint his location before the bomb detonates. Ask him questions. Maybe start with: why? People love to talk about themselves. I bet he’s no exception. Soon you’ll be chatting about, I don’t know, your respective high schools and favourite noodle places. Just keep him on the line. You can perform basic tasks as long as the phone never leaves your ear. (Conversation will get easier. You’ll become expert at small talk: the appropriate follow-up questions, the subvocal please go on hums and huhs.) Eventually, one arm will feel more muscular from holding the phone; the other limp, always by your side. Sometimes, you’ll be tempted to hang up. Enough is enough, you’ll think. I don’t want this bomb to go off, but I have to live my life! You’ll then see me gesturing at you, making a kind of pinching and pulling motion with my hands: stretch stretch stretch. So you’ll ask him about his childhood, and whether he believes in god. He’ll answer, and ask you in return. It’ll be easy, intimate. You’d miss him if he wasn’t always there. Sometimes you’ll think you could end the call and his voice would still echo in your head – but don’t hang up! Keep him on the line! Lives are at stake! You’ll tell him what you look like; you’re much older than when the conversation began. He’ll say he can already imagine you from the sound of your voice. A voice that’s changing, now. Harder to hear than it used to be, and sometimes you find yourself grasping blindly for the right word. He laughs: me too! You’ve heard all each other’s stories, but there’s pleasure in what’s familiar. (I’ll no longer be in the room, watching and listening. I died years ago. My mission lives on in you.) One night, you’ll be in bed, lying sideways – it’s the only position that doesn’t hurt your hips – and cradling the phone. You’ll say: I love you. He’ll say: I love you too. Then, gently, you’ll ask: Do you want to talk about the bomb? But you’ll realise you can’t hear him breathing anymore. It’d been a constant, like the tides, for so long. You’ll sit up in bed and lower your phone. You ear will feel hot and naked without it. In the distance, a small explosion.

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Martyn Pedler is a writer in Melbourne, Australia. His flash fiction has appeared in Bending Genres, Have Has Had, Flash Point Sci-Fi, and often in Ahoy Comics. He has a PhD in Creative Writing from Swinburne University, focusing on superhero stories and toxic fandom, and also has a horror/comedy screenplay in post-production. You can see more of his stuff at martynpedler.com

Two Questions for K.A. Polzin

We recently published K.A. Polzin’s brilliant “A Metaphor for Something.”

Here, we ask K.A. two questions about the story:

1) I love how current this story is, how now, how powerful. This could be happening anywhere, to anyone. It is happening everywhere, to everyone! How do you picture your narrators?
As the story is partly autobiographical – I have felt everything the narrator feels, at least on my worst days – I picture the narrator as someone not unlike me, speaking for both themself and their partner (or family). I’ve exaggerated the situations and emotions, so perhaps the narrator is someone like me after a night of terrible sleep.

2) “On the TV, the program never changes.” This paragraph, for me, is particularly striking — it shows the things we choose to “entertain” ourselves with for the pathetic reality they are. Why do you think so much of our media, our entertainment, takes this form?
As a teenager, I loved watching The Love Boat. I knew it was silly, but that was part of its power. Formulaic TV shows and movies are comforting, relaxing. They can be a balm for those with stressful, difficult lives, of which there may be more now than ever. I have found comfort in them in difficult times. But they are passive experiences – they are easy, too easy – whereas a great book or film is an active, meaning-making experience. But one must first have the mental space to do some work.

A Metaphor for Something ~ by K.A. Polzin

 Things are functioning, but just barely. The AC is set to High, yet we sweat. We hear the fridge struggling, compressor kicking on and off. The lights flicker but hold. There’s no point in calling anyone. They charge us just to look at it, then tell us there’s nothing they can do.

            Friends call to talk about their illnesses, their procedures. They call to compare medications. The doctor no longer accepts their insurance, they say. Now there’s only the ER. They wait for hours with the magazines, eyes throbbing, tissue over their mouth.

            A man comes to the door, claims to be a neighbor, knows us by name. His daughter is in the hospital, he says, and he needs money quick, but the bank is closed. We’re doubtful, but we give him the cash in our wallets. The detectives tell us we are not the first.

            Bands of feral cats prowl the street. We hiss at them, hope to scare them off, but they only stop, stare. Who do you think you are? their look says. You should stay in your homes. The street is ours.

            Cars slither by, windows open, stereos thumping. Any delay in the traffic starts the honking.

            The things on our screens remind us we’re unremarkable, uninteresting, unattractive: we are not lounging on the beach, we cannot paint photorealistically, our puppies don’t behave adorably – they chew on our best possessions and drop their runny stools. It feels like a metaphor for something.

            On the TV, the program never changes: a naked woman dead in a creek. Then the hunt. Many appear guilty. Very slowly the monster is revealed. It’s one of us. Or: young people, the currently beautiful, scheme to win something they all agree is valuable. But is it?

            We take walks in the cement neighborhood. Odors of things rotting, vents venting gasses, a cloud of something from a construction site. A man revs an unmuffled car, inky smoke billows from the pipe. We are always dodging scooters. Police gather on corners, looking disgusted. Any inquiry elicits an impatient scowl.

            We want to go away, see something else, break the pattern, but we worry about removing the car from its parking space. One of us, upon our return, will have to stay with the vehicle, circle the block for hours waiting for someone to leave. The thought of it is a deterrent.

            We dream. We dream of leaving, of becoming citizens of elsewhere, of pleasant places we can afford, pure green places, where we can walk to anywhere, where our spirits can enlarge, our perceptions sharpen, where we feel exalted, and when we die, we die very old, or not at all.

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K. A. Polzin’s stories have appeared in Subtropics, swamp pink, Wigleaf, X-R-A-Y, and elsewhere, and have been anthologized in Best Small Fictions 2023 and the Fractured Lit Anthology 3, and chosen for the Wigleaf Top 50. Polzin was a finalist for The Forge Flash Fiction Competition.

Two Questions for Justine Sweeney

We recently published Justine Sweeney’s devastating “Two days after I died.”

Here, we ask her two questions about her story:

1) The reader never learns how the narrator died — it could be an accident, illness, something else — and yet the story stands whole without that detail. But still: do you have an idea of what happened?
I wrote the story last summer when I was faced with a serious health diagnosis and my mind kept circling ideas of mortality and people’s reactions to illness and death. But I wanted to leave the illness ambiguous so that a wide range of readers could identify with this situation.

2) The story isn’t about the narrator, really, but about this woman who “mourns” her so performatively and about her sister, who is so changed by her death. We don’t learn how the narrator feels watching her sister’s reaction, but we can imagine how heartbreaking it must be. Do you think seeing her sister’s pain is harder for her than her own death?
I think social media adds a surreal performative aspect to the experience of grief, like when a celebrity dies and everyone’s posting about it. Someone who’s lost someone close might want to be very private with their experiences, and, thinking about mortality like I was, I wanted to explore what it would be like to be going through that for real and have someone else acting out this social media grief right in front of them, making it all feel worse. I think it is incredibly hard to watch someone you love being ill and suffering, because you feel completely powerless, so the situation with the social media post represented that sense of powerlessness on the sister’s part.

Two days after I died ~ by Justine Sweeney

a woman from my neighbourhood posted a long ramble on her socials  about how she hadn’t slept a wink and how devastated she was to hear about what happened to me and about how she went to school with me and got the bus home with me and I thought it was really odd because I think I only spoke to her five times in my life, twice during sixth form  and maybe two or three times since then when I bumped into her in Tesco or at the park while our kids where running about mad or screaming down the chute slide, and any conversations I did have with the woman were superficial and a nod to the children: You have your hands full, how are they settling into the primary four? Oh, Mrs Pike? She’s a nightmare.  Don’t they have far too much homework? Like this woman wasn’t someone I was ever mates with because she’s one of those women that turned forty the day she actually turned thirty and was all about trying to look like she had her shit together and she was on the PTA  at our kid’s school but she got on like she was running the place when all she was doing was organising the BBQ at sports days, so I waited until my sister  was up because I knew she’d see the post or someone would screenshot it and send it to her and we’d roar laughing about what this woman was on, but then when my sister did wake up and read it she just clicked the button on the side of her phone to make the screen go black and then pulled the covers back over her head and didn’t laugh with me at all.

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Justine is an Irish writer. Her stories appear in journals and anthologies such as the Dublin Review, Banshee Press, Moon City Review, Bath Flash, Trash Cat Lit, Inkfish Magazine, Flash Fiction Magazine, Fish Publishing and Fictive Dream. She’s a Best Small Fictions nominee and her first collection of stories was shortlisted/ highly commended in the Bath Novella-in-flash Award 2025.

Two Questions for Jeanne Lyet Gassman

We recently published Jeanne Lyet Gassman’s searing “What We Bring to the Shelter.”

Here, we ask her two questions about her story:

1) I love the different perspectives we get in this story — each paragraph gives us a different character, a different point of view, and a fuller picture of the whole. How do you think these characters will interact with each other? How will their stories change?
In my experience of being evacuated to an emergency shelter, I noticed how quickly people reached out to help one another once they had recovered from the initial shock. I would imagine that the person who brought pillows and a blanket or a sleeping bag might offer their blankets/pillows to someone who was elderly or cold. Others might ask the person about her grandmother’s quilt, to share some stories and memories of her grandmother. The group huddled together reading from their spiritual texts might invite others to join their circle and offer their own prayers. A collection of old photos and scrapbooks could inspire a conversation with a stranger about the stories in the photos. People at our shelter did share the information they gleaned from their tablets and laptops about the ongoing disaster. They shared information about other lodging, the extent of the disaster, where to find food or refill a prescription, etc. It was very helpful. Finally, I think if a family brought games and snacks for their kids, they might offer to share with other children who were frightened and had nothing.

2) Are there characters whose stories are left untold? Whose belongings aren’t detailed here? Sitting quietly in the shelter, thinking of what they have lost?
I thought about this question for a long time, and I think the voices that are missing are the people who already know they have nothing to return to. These are the people who may have been renting property, or people who live in mobile homes or inherited houses–all directly in the path of the disaster. Most of them probably have no insurance. The only belongings they have are what they brought to the shelter. All of their possessions may be packed in their car. As they sit in the shelter, they’re probably worrying about where they will sleep in the months to come. Where will they find clothing? A new job? Unfortunately, not everyone in a disaster has a support system or family to help them out.