Two days after I died ~ by Justine Sweeney

a woman from my neighbourhood posted a long ramble on her socials  about how she hadn’t slept a wink and how devastated she was to hear about what happened to me and about how she went to school with me and got the bus home with me and I thought it was really odd because I think I only spoke to her five times in my life, twice during sixth form  and maybe two or three times since then when I bumped into her in Tesco or at the park while our kids where running about mad or screaming down the chute slide, and any conversations I did have with the woman were superficial and a nod to the children: You have your hands full, how are they settling into the primary four? Oh, Mrs Pike? She’s a nightmare.  Don’t they have far too much homework? Like this woman wasn’t someone I was ever mates with because she’s one of those women that turned forty the day she actually turned thirty and was all about trying to look like she had her shit together and she was on the PTA  at our kid’s school but she got on like she was running the place when all she was doing was organising the BBQ at sports days, so I waited until my sister  was up because I knew she’d see the post or someone would screenshot it and send it to her and we’d roar laughing about what this woman was on, but then when my sister did wake up and read it she just clicked the button on the side of her phone to make the screen go black and then pulled the covers back over her head and didn’t laugh with me at all.

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Justine is an Irish writer. Her stories appear in journals and anthologies such as the Dublin Review, Banshee Press, Moon City Review, Bath Flash, Trash Cat Lit, Inkfish Magazine, Flash Fiction Magazine, Fish Publishing and Fictive Dream. She’s a Best Small Fictions nominee and her first collection of stories was shortlisted/ highly commended in the Bath Novella-in-flash Award 2025.

Two Questions for Jeanne Lyet Gassman

We recently published Jeanne Lyet Gassman’s searing “What We Bring to the Shelter.”

Here, we ask her two questions about her story:

1) I love the different perspectives we get in this story — each paragraph gives us a different character, a different point of view, and a fuller picture of the whole. How do you think these characters will interact with each other? How will their stories change?
In my experience of being evacuated to an emergency shelter, I noticed how quickly people reached out to help one another once they had recovered from the initial shock. I would imagine that the person who brought pillows and a blanket or a sleeping bag might offer their blankets/pillows to someone who was elderly or cold. Others might ask the person about her grandmother’s quilt, to share some stories and memories of her grandmother. The group huddled together reading from their spiritual texts might invite others to join their circle and offer their own prayers. A collection of old photos and scrapbooks could inspire a conversation with a stranger about the stories in the photos. People at our shelter did share the information they gleaned from their tablets and laptops about the ongoing disaster. They shared information about other lodging, the extent of the disaster, where to find food or refill a prescription, etc. It was very helpful. Finally, I think if a family brought games and snacks for their kids, they might offer to share with other children who were frightened and had nothing.

2) Are there characters whose stories are left untold? Whose belongings aren’t detailed here? Sitting quietly in the shelter, thinking of what they have lost?
I thought about this question for a long time, and I think the voices that are missing are the people who already know they have nothing to return to. These are the people who may have been renting property, or people who live in mobile homes or inherited houses–all directly in the path of the disaster. Most of them probably have no insurance. The only belongings they have are what they brought to the shelter. All of their possessions may be packed in their car. As they sit in the shelter, they’re probably worrying about where they will sleep in the months to come. Where will they find clothing? A new job? Unfortunately, not everyone in a disaster has a support system or family to help them out.

What We Bring to the Shelter ~ by Jeanne Lyet Gassman

We bring only our wallets, purses, cell phones, and chargers because we had no time to grab anything else. We use our phones to text and call relatives so they won’t panic.

We bring our pets on leashes, in carriers and cages, and in our arms, but our shelter requires they go to another shelter, and when they leave, we worry they will be alone and afraid.

We bring our jewelry stuffed in a sock or crammed in the sleeve of our jacket, and we worry someone will find it while we sleep.

We bring pillows and a blanket or a sleeping bag because we have been through this before, and we know the cots are hard and the blankets are thin.

We bring Grandma’s homemade quilt. She died five years ago, but when we wrap ourselves in it, we can still smell her, and we feel safe.

We bring our wig and full makeup kit because the press is outside, and we want to look our best if they ask for an interview.

We bring our weekly pill counter, hoping we will only need our prescriptions for a day or two.

We bring our religious and spiritual texts, and we huddle in the corner, reading them aloud, because we find comfort from the familiar lessons and prophesies.

We bring our file box labeled “important papers,” but we have no idea what is in there and if it will be any use.

We bring the box of old photos stashed on the top shelf of our closet, and as we rummage through them, we’re swept away with memories of birthdays, anniversaries, graduations, holidays, vacations, and better times.

We bring our toothpaste but not our toothbrush because we forgot about it in our rush to get out.

We bring our emergency stash of cash because we’re worried credit cards and ATMs may not function during power outages.

We bring our tablets and laptops and spend most of our time doomscrolling for updates, but accurate information is slow in coming.

We bring drinks, snacks, and games for our children, hoping it will be enough to keep them quiet during the long night ahead.

We bring nothing but the clothes on our backs because we ran with the disaster on our heels. We bring our pieces of the past, our anxiety for the present, and our uncertainty about the future, and we hold them close to our hearts, a talisman attached, because when we leave we don’t know if we have a home to go to.

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Jeanne Lyet Gassman’s first novel, BLOOD OF A STONE (Tuscany Press), received an Independent Publishers Book Award in 2015. Additional honors for Jeanne include grants and fellowships from The New Mexico Writers’ Foundation, Ragdale, and the Arizona Commission for the Arts. Jeanne’s work has appeared in or is forthcoming in American Writers’ Review: Buyer’s Remorse (San Fedele Press), The Sunlight Press, and West Trade Review, among many others.

Two Questions for Sagar Nair

We recently published Sagar Nair’s brilliant “Not One of Us.”

Here, we ask him two questions about his story:

1) I love stories like this, where the narrator(s) reveal much more about themselves than the person they are presumably talking about (and judging!). Do you think the characters here realize how much they are showing of themselves? Do you think they would care?
Such an interesting question. I think the narrators are unbothered by what they show of themselves, because they believe they are right. They have full conviction in their unjustified disgust. They believe what they say makes them look good, but that is for the reader to decide. Also, I think the narrators hide behind the first-person plural POV to shield themselves from negative perceptions. They speak as a collective to appear valid and authoritative, despite little justification for their views.  

2) Isabel seems like such an amazing person! But do you think she is hoping to wear down her neighbors with kindness? Or does she, as they believe, harbor some sinister intent behind her “giraffe eyes”?
Ultimately, I want readers to decide if they believe the narrators and if Isabel has sinister intentions. Personally, I think Isabel is trying to appease the narrators and prove her goodness through hyper-politeness. Sadly, there is no winning for Isabel—whether she’s rude or polite, she cannot change their minds and they will twist all her actions to support their beliefs. Isabel’s character demonstrates the psychology of a scapegoat. Some scapegoats resist the irrational blame, whereas others turn to respectability and the illusion that one can control what others think. Isabel is trying to prove her right to exist to people who are not listening.

Not One of Us ~ by Sagar Nair

Isabel is not one of us. When we see her, we veil our windows with pleated curtains and woven bamboo shades, snap our shutters and honeycomb blinds. We tug our dogs’ leashes and walk away, fold our hands and pray. Isabel owns the moose meat shop opposite the crematorium. On Fridays, our dead are burned—smoke mists the street and bakes into the moose meat sheets hung in the window display. If we visit her shop, we avoid eye contact and stare at the sausages snaked on the walls. We order shredded, minced, shaved and ground moose meat. Tenderloin, backstrap, ribs, tongue. Isabel fumbles the plastic wrap and jams the vacuum sealer. She is incompetent. We lower our expectations, yet she disappoints us when she forgets to trim the excess fat, when she drops a slab of moose meat on the floor with a splat. What a shame we love moose meat. If we knew her supplier, we would open our own shop and kill her business. Rumors say she hunts the meat herself, that’s why we never see her on Sundays, because she goes into the forest to shoot moose. We try to imagine her with a rifle, with a machete, chopping off antlers, peeling back skin. We cannot. Rumors say she buys beef and paints it with red acrylic to resemble moose meat. She is a fraud. We like to speculate: the crop circle in the corn field means aliens have come to collect her, the lightning storm means God wants to zap her, the month-long rain is her fault. So is the hurricane. Last winter, bird flu decimated the chicken farms and we blamed her. She hexed the priest and stopped his heart. Isabel doesn’t care that she is not one of us. She remains polite, delivers quiches and handmade holiday cards to her neighbors who throw them in the compost for the worms to feast upon. She offers her hand but we do not shake it. She says, “Have a good day.” What agenda lurks behind her pleasantries? Behind her giraffe eyes, does she plot murder? We protect our children. “You cannot play in the park behind the moose meat shop,” we say. “The swing set is rusty,” we say. “You’ll get tetanus,” we say. All lies. When our children grow up, they will realize Isabel is not one of us. They will thank us for our parenting.

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Sagar Nair is from Sydney, Australia. His work is published in SmokeLong Quarterly, X-R-A-Y Literary Magazine, Vol. 1 Brooklyn, 100 Word Story, The Shore Poetry, The Suburban Review, Voiceworks, and elsewhere.

Two Questions for Emily Rinkema

We recently published Emily Rinkema’s devastating “Things That Don’t Matter.”

Here, we ask her two questions about her story:

1) So much of this story is told through nonverbal cues and gestures — there’s such a feeling of the narrator understanding and knowing, and yet being unknown to others herself. How correct do you think her interpretations are here?
I wanted to capture the feeling of being in a social setting and being just a hair’s breadth away from losing it–that feeling when you aren’t sure whether it’s just you or whether your interpretations are actually true–when you know you have to keep that smile plastered on your face or you’ll be crying into your dinner plate in front of everyone. Going through perimenopause has made this feeling all the more resonant for me–I have learned that I can’t always trust my own emotions, that I need to give myself a few beats (or 24 hours!) to decide whether I feel as strongly about something as I do in the moment. Which feels dangerous, not to be able to trust myself, my perception, my intuition.

The narrator here is on that edge, and she definitely doesn’t feel heard or seen by her husband (whom she imagines is truly listening to Manny’s wife), or even by Manny, who has chosen her as a confidante but knows nothing about her in return. And as she maintains control of the party, she is losing control of herself…but not so much that she isn’t able to sense that and disappear upstairs! 

2) And so much of this story is also the keeping up of pretenses, the look of perfection and correctness. In the end, the narrator seems to be unable to cope, but … will her lasagna burn? Will she make it back downstairs to maintain as much of her mask as possible? Or is she going to let it all burn down?
I wanted there to be some ambiguity, since I’m not sure she knows whether she’ll be able to pull it together or not. And the story ends with her looking in the mirror, seeing herself since she thinks no one else sees her. I think the sting of the plucking (an ultimate pretense!) is a way to feel there, to feel present and real, if that makes sense. Ultimately, I want her to let it all burn down, but I don’t think she will. The question is, will she have eyebrows left when she makes it back downstairs!

Things That Don’t Matter ~ by Emily Rinkema

It’s our neighbor Manny’s 50th birthday and we are hosting his party even though he has a wife, who is sitting on our couch in her linen overalls laughing at something my husband Leif just said. She has bangs. I can’t decide whether I want to be her or kill her. I understand there’s likely a middle ground, but right now I can’t find it.

            Leif looks at me and tilts his head in a way that says, “I know you think I’m flirting but I’m just being social,” and I smile at him in a way that says, “I know you are thinking about her breasts,” and then he smiles back in a way that says, “I definitely wasn’t thinking about her breasts until you brought it up,” and I turn back into the kitchen to check on the crab lasagna, which is Manny’s favorite meal.

            I know it’s Manny’s favorite meal because sometimes he texts me late at night when everyone is asleep and tells me things that don’t matter. In addition to the crab lasagna, I know that he has a tattoo on his right thigh, that he thinks a side effect of climate change is that chipmunks are getting larger, that he wants to put a fence in his back yard, that cantaloupe is the best fruit, that he thinks his wife is having an affair, that there are over 40 cities in the world named Paris. In return, Manny knows nothing about me.

            The lasagna still has ten minutes to go, so I wipe my hands on my apron and tell Tina I’m all set, that I don’t need help, and I laugh at something Kelly says even though I didn’t hear it, and when Steven offers to fill my glass by pointing at me with a wine bottle, I nod yes and grab the first glass I see on the counter, which I don’t think is actually mine, and I hold it out to him and he fills it too much, but I don’t pull it away, and then I say “Cheers” to the room and then, “I’ll be right back!” and I say it with an exclamation point so everyone knows I’m happy and that everything is okay and that I’m having fun at the party and that I’m not at all worried or sad or furious that Leif is now touching Manny’s wife’s knee, casually, as if she is saying something profound, as if he wants to show her he’s really listening, and I go upstairs, run upstairs, but in a happy way, a light way, a way that makes people think I’m just popping up to grab something I forgot or to change my shirt or to get a photo I’d promised to show someone.

            “Be right down!” I yell, smiling so they will hear that in my voice.

            In the bathroom, I breathe in through my nose and out through my mouth. I drink my wine. I lean over the sink and look at my face. I take the tweezers out of the drawer and pluck a hair on my chin that is dark, long enough that someone should have pointed it out, someone should have noticed. The sting feels good. I pluck another just below my nose and my eyes water. I can hear voices downstairs but no words. I lean closer to the mirror and stare at my left eyebrow. I pluck a grey hair out of the middle. I know the timer is going to go off any minute now and that I will make it into the kitchen just in time to pull the lasagna out of the oven–pluck!–and everyone will say how great it smells and how hard I must have worked and how lucky Leif is–pluck!–and he will come up behind me and put his hands on my shoulders and kiss the top of my head and I will smile–pluck!–and smile–pluck!–and smile–pluck!

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Emily Rinkema lives and writes in northern Vermont, USA. Her writing has recently appeared in Ghost Parachute, Okay Donkey, JAKE, and Frazzled Lit, and she won the 2024 Cambridge and Lascaux Prizes for flash fiction. You can read her work at https://emilyrinkema.wixsite.com/my-site or follow her on X, BS, or IG (@emilyrinkema).

Two Questions for Sarp Sozdinler

We recently published Sarp Sozdinler’s impeccable “Golden Hour.”

Here, we ask him two questions about his story:

1) I love the idea of perfection in this piece, taking the form of omelettes. Especially because my omelettes never turn out! But really, the woman becomes lost in the creation of perfect omelettes until she is utterly lost.Does anyone remember the woman she was? Or only her perfect omelettes?
I think the most important question is for her: Will she remember who she is? Who she becomes along the way? Her domestic labor, it seems, is the only time she feels alive, present, and useful within the confines of her reality. The omelette becomes her signature of sorts, the only part of her that’s legible to the people benefiting from it. That’s the trap of perfection, too: it’s flattering, rewarding, even endearing in a way, but it’s also a form of manipulation. The better she gets at it, the less anyone needs to think about who she is, because the answer is in the omelette. In that sense, she is neither recognized nor remembered for who she is (a woman with a soul and complexity), but for what she represents (a preordained social role she inherited from other women in her position). And yet the ending gives her an almost mythological status, one that won’t offer her any consolation or fame but a kind of problematic permanence. Her personhood may be forgotten, but her legacy will remain: someone will always crack eggs at the same counter, in the same light, chasing that brief golden moment of perfection and simplicity. I find something unsettlingly poetic, even evolutionary, in all that.

2) What made you choose omelettes for this piece, and not, say, pancakes or waffles? Perhaps a nice frittata? What drew you to omelettes to tell this woman’s story?
I’d guess it’s because an omelette is humbler, cheaper, and more accessible worldwide. In my Turkish homes, pancakes and waffles were pretty much nonexistent; omelettes were the everyday currency of our care-giving and gathering. They let the labor of love stay intimate and small and effortless and repetitive without turning the whole thing into a spectacle. You can make them for one person or twenty. You can make them every day. They are fast and hot and perishable. They vanish as soon as they’re eaten. (There must be a reason why there’s no leftover omelette culture anywhere.) That kind of ephemerality works twofold in this story: the work disappears on schedule, so is the worker. There’s an almost ritualistic zen to it all, this small and semi-meaningless morning liturgy you repeat over and over and over, until the day you die or fall out of use like a well-loved (yet under-appreciated) household appliance. I apologize for the grim turn of phrase, but that’s the story’s hinge: devotion and obligation can sometimes look like the same thing and be mistaken for one another in the wrong light. Like in a complicated relationship, omelettes can punish you for taking them for granted. It all but takes a second of crisis of confidence for everything to go awry. That kind of frustration for some reason feels right in a story about endless search for perfection: perfection as a perpetually moving target, something you can almost hold, but never for too long.

Golden Hour ~ by Sarp Sozdinler

One morning, she cooked an omelette for herself. It was perfect. Golden at the edges, soft around the middle. The smell hung in the air: butter, heat, a little salt. She cooked another one, this time for her children. It slid from the pan like silk. She wiped the counter. No crumbs, no trace. She cooked ten omelettes and her hands moved without thought: crack, whisk, pour, tilt. She cooked for the whole neighborhood, fifty in a day, and her husband slapped her in the back. She worked through the sweat. She could tell the right moment to fold by the smell alone. She cooked nearly five hundred omelettes and that was a whole week gone. She cooked five thousand omelettes and that was a year. The cartons of eggs changed brands, but her rhythm stayed the same. The skillet memorized the outline of her palm. The pan would have waxed lyrical about the warmth of her touch. She cooked fifty thousand omelettes and that was a lifetime. Her wrists buzzed even at night. Her shoulders hummed with ghosts of flips long past. Her clothes were lined with crumbs and yolk. She cooked four hundred thousand omelettes and then she was gone. Her husband complained about the quality going down. Decades turned. The house changed hands. Whole families died and eggs hatched with new life. Nobody remembered the woman who’d cooked all those omelettes, but every morning, someone still cracked eggs at the same counter. The butter hissed. The smell rose. And somewhere in that brief golden moment, the world felt simple all over again.

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Sarp Sozdinler has been published in Electric Literature, Kenyon Review, Masters Review, Pithead Chapel, Flash Frog, and Fractured Lit, among other journals. His stories have been selected and nominated for anthologies, including the Pushcart Prize, Best Small Fictions, and Wigleaf Top 50. He’s currently at work on his first novel in Philadelphia and Amsterdam: www.sarpsozdinler.com | @sarpsozdinler

Two Questions for Stephanie Frazee

We recently published Stephanie Frazee’s miraculous “A Glorious and Unknown Place.”

Here, we ask her two questions about her story:

1) I love how you take the Hans Christian Andersen idea of the soulless mermaid (I mean, really, his stories were ALL Christian allegories, weren’t they!) and turn her into something that both takes and gives. Do you think there is a part of your mermaid that longs for a soul like the Andersen version?
Absolutely! The mermaid’s longing for a soul has gotten lost in the modern versions of the story, whereas it’s the main driver of her actions, and gives poignancy to the resolution of her relationship with the prince, in the Andersen version. In this story, she believes the boys have what is inaccessible and unknowable to her and that she has found a way of getting closer to it. I did not set out to write a story about her longing for a soul, but it went there pretty quickly. I mean, what higher stakes can there be for a character? 

2) The boys that come to her — they lose their lives but they gain eternity. Or so the mermaid believes. Is this really an act of so-called generosity? Or is there jealousy at play here?
There is totally jealousy at play, among other things. In the Andersen version, the mermaid has a statue of a boy in her garden. That was the start of this story: how might she have gotten the statue (Andersen tells us it was a shipwreck, but what else might have happened?), and why is it so special to her? What does it mean to love something that can’t love you back, and alternatively, can’t reject you or leave or tell you how it feels at all? That is possession, not love. However, I think the mermaid believes her actions come from a place of love, and that takes the story to an even darker place.