There once was an island off the coast of Florida’s big toe that was created by Hurricane Roberta in 1950 and called Cat Spit by the fishermen who discovered it through their binoculars. For so long its only inhabitants were crabs and seabirds until Tyra and the crew brought the girls auditioning for cycle 42 there and said, “Only 13 of you will continue on in the hopes of becoming America’s Next Top Model. The rest will be left here to figure out what went wrong.”

Seven is a fine number for a family, a little small for a colony, and though no one remembers their original names, we do know they came to be collectively called Melissa. First, they built lean-tos from hurricane driftwood. Melissa’s long limbs were perfectly suited to the climbing of the palmettos long ago planted there by seabird excretion, and they used those fronds to thatch their slanted roofs. At night there they slept, curled around one another like cats. Melissa cracked crabs with their wedges and heels, and eventually their feet hardened to the shells that littered their small sandbar. Their hands were wide but gentle and they deftly stole seabird eggs. They were fond of crab meat omelets. Sometimes they added algae for B12. They collected rainwater in emptied Caboodles, angled their compact mirrors to harvest the sun for campfires.

The Women’s Group of the Coral City Baptist Church visited them first, came with blueberry muffins and pocket bibles and a 24 pack of bottled water. They found Melissa seated crisscross in a row, bronzed shoulders and newly freckled cheekbones, braiding each other’s hair, singing “Doll Parts” like a hymn.

After that, whenever the fishermen and concerned Floridians came too close to their shore, Melissa greeted them calmly but would accept no aid. Still, the fishermen left them bouquets of jasmine, gardenias, lilacs. Chocolates that melted in the heat, peeled oranges. Lacy valentines that faded in the sun until the water reached out and pulled them back. It was said of them that they forgot they were women, that their smiles meant something different. One fisherman swore he saw Melissa jump from the top of a palmetto and catch the breeze before floating back to the sand. Another said that scales were forming on their sharp collarbones, that their fingernails had started to grow curved over, hard and opaque. Stories persisted on the mainland that Melissa swam laterally, serpentine, as if they had no legs or arms, only supple, strong spines.

Just as the rumors really got going and somebody decided someone should do something about Melissa, Hurricane Indigo spun off of Africa, moving westward, feeding on warm air and saltwater. The stubbornest of mainlanders boarded up windows and doors and filled up empty milk jugs with tap water. Most others fled upward, inland. In the aftermath of it all, in the leaving and coming back, amidst the rebuilding and grieving, it was weeks before the fisherman and concerned Floridians remembered Melissa. They loaded up their boats, headed east, and found nothing. As quickly as Cat Spit was created, it perished, as if a god had simply flipped the island back over on itself like a pancake. There was no Melissa, no debris, not even a crab shell or a Caboodle floating in the water—only the vague feeling of having brushed up against a life you could’ve had.

The fishermen had no place to put their yearning, their saliva dried up in their mouths. They all got used to having less. The hardened among them figured Melissa would wash ashore eventually, their bodies bloated and fish-chewed. Some hoped Melissa may have heard the storm was coming, built a raft out of their lean-to and made their way to the Keys or Cuba, even. They could’ve settled down around the Gulf of Mexico somewhere, had long-limbed babies with killer cheekbones, sold leggings to other moms.

If only the fishermen and the concerned Floridians had looked into the red sky the morning of the storm, after the night of the full Strawberry Moon. Maybe they would have seen, impossibly, Melissa rising like the tide, into the air, swimming through the dark clouds. The tails of their braids flying, flirting with the quick wind. If they were listening, maybe they would’ve heard Melissa sing ecstatic, a taloned bird call mimicry of laughter like soda bubbles, like summer vacation, like women who have finally figured it all out.

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Janice Leadingham is a Portland, OR based writer and tarot-reader originally from somewhere-near-Dollywood, Tennessee. You can find her work in HAD, The Bureau Dispatch, The Northwest Review, Bullshit Lit, Wrongdoing Magazine, JAKE, Maudlin House, and Reckon Review, among others. She is a Brave New Weird and Best Small Fictions nominee. She is @TheHagSoup everywhere and also hagsoup.com.

Because he’d be upset if I didn’t save the right suits, but I couldn’t remember if his Kiton or Kired suits were the luxury ones. Because the twins’ favorite toys— legos and a train set—were scattered about and there was no time to gather them. Because although the sky was orange and the air smoky, I couldn’t see flames yet. Because the baby needed feeding and my nipples were cracked and bleeding and there was never enough time for warm compresses and lanolin. Because my mother-in-law’s dark oil landscapes my husband’s first edition Hemingways his collection of antique surgical instruments. Because singed pages of books hadn’t yet drifted from the sky into the children’s sandbox. Because Sunny, the standing human skeleton from medical school was too bulky to pack and when my husband and I argued he thought it was funny to bring her out and make her talk shit to me. Because embers and hand-sized ash flakes hadn’t yet fallen from the sky. Because once I got the twins and the baby and our bunny Sacha and our two cats in the car, maybe. Maybe I wanted everything else to burn.

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Claudia Monpere was just awarded the Smokelong Workshop Prize and her flash appears or is forthcoming in many literary magazines, including Craft, The Forge, Trampset, Fictive Dream, and Atticus Review. 

When you fell, your night was over. Stumbling was ok, you’d blame your shoes that were a little bit high and a touch too new, or a wayward pebble on the footpath. You’d smile at the bouncer and flick the flame red hair that made the boys go weak.

He’d scrunch his eyebrows and pretend to be unsure, tipping his head in imitation of thought, then he’d step backwards, allowing you to enter. We’d follow inside, relieved, loud music pulsing inside us, blooms of club steam clouding our faces.

But you fell.

And the bouncer knows falling means drunk, means tears, means vomit on chairs, in toilets and queues snaking from doors angry girls bang for admittance.

No, you’re not getting in tonight, darling.

 In an ideal world we’d leave with you, share the unmarked taxi with broken headlight, ask the driver what caused the black eye. We’d notice his gaze creep over your bottle-tanned thighs, slither up to your face of smudged make up, gears grinding in his skull, noting your melting wax features drifting to sleep.

 Our skin would prickle as a lizard tongue stroked his chapped lips, tasting possibility, making a decision.

 And we’d shout as he took the wrong turn down the unlit road of lonely houses, their window-eyes blind with nailed plywood. We’d threaten police and our fists as he switched off the ignition, and with our new salon nails, rip him to shreds as he lurched towards you.

But we’d spent too long preparing for the night out. We’d shaved our legs and applied pearly layers of slow drying lotion. We’d curled our hair with heated tongs, added extra strands from the plastic packet.

And Thursdays were hopping. Everyone we knew would be there.

So we went inside.

We didn’t want to go home with you. We didn’t fall.

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Marie-Louise McGuinness comes from a wonderfully neurodiverse household in rural Northern Ireland. She has work published or forthcoming in numerous literary magazines including Flash Frog, Gone Lawn, Bending Genres, BULL and The Metaworker Literary Magazine. She has been nominated for a Pushcart Prize and enjoys writing from a sensory perspective.

Last look at my grandmother: a slim blue vase above the mouth of the fireplace. A final offering, a displacement of cinders.

A long time ago, she told me a story. When she was eight years old, living in rural Germany, she and two older boys came across three kittens in a ditch: mewling, clearly abandoned. The boys wanted to experiment on them—they had sharp sticks, rusty nails—but she screamed at them Don’t you dare. So one of the boys cut her instead, a slash on the arm. Predictably, the wound got infected. She cried in her bed, delirious with fever, the sheets turned translucent with sweat, and just when everyone thought she was going to die, her body fought it off. 

“I had mercy on the kittens,” she said, showing me. On her wrinkled arm, the scar tissue puckered like a disapproving mouth. “So God had mercy on me.”

I raised my eyebrows, because by that point I had already stopped believing in God, but I knew better than to say anything.

My grandmother never spoke about what happened during the war. Some secrets stayed unreachable, memories knitted closed like the scar on her arm. All I knew that by the time my mother was born my grandmother was long gone from Germany, out of there forever. But Germany would never be out of her.

Whenever I dream of my grandmother now, I picture her growing the tumor that killed her. She is lit from within, the clump of cells building in her skull, blooming white in the interior darkness: first the size of a zygote, and then turning to things the size of food—a pea, a cherry, an apricot—and finally something too large to be edible. Something almost like a fist. Maybe it bloomed there, in the airless dark. Maybe it shone out through the bone of her skull, lighting up her bedroom, lunar. Her own earthbound moon.

Eventually I move out of my mother’s house and to Chicago, a city that careens wildly between heat and cold, like it can’t figure out exactly how it wants to make your life miserable. My apartment is small and clean and pet-friendly, but I don’t get a cat. Something about them. I paint all the walls white, as if they might glow in the darkness. But they don’t, and a week later I paint them black. 

I imagine the true end to my grandmother’s story: the kittens dying not long afterwards, forgotten. After all, how could they survive without their mother? I can’t figure out why she never mentioned telling her parents where they were, or at least making sure someone took care of them so they wouldn’t starve. I can’t figure out why she acted like her story had a happy ending.

Sometimes I buy cigarettes, ignoring the raised eyebrows of the cashier, his low accented rumble You’re too beautiful to be buying these. I believe that my grandmother was beautiful, once, but eventually she wasn’t, and so it was fitting for her to die. Right?

Sometimes I snap my lighter into flame, touch it to one cigarette and then another, burn them all right down to their filters without so much as touching one to my lips. Smoke fills the air, curls over on itself as if indignant at the waste. No one else is here to smell it, so it crawls unnoticed and unremarked-upon into my surroundings. My hair, my clothes, the cracks in the paint: they all smell like poison.

My body is only the ellipsis of my ancestors, a continuation no one asked for.

Years pass and turn to layers on my skin and I don’t dream of my grandmother anymore. Instead I dream of crows coming down from the sky, a few at first and then more and more of them, descending in soft black sheets. They litter the fields, perch on my shoulders, talk to me in their dead voices. They tell me that my grandmother’s story was a fable meant to guide a child, and that she got the scar on her arm from something much worse: the careful burning away of six numbers stamped into her skin. The flame, the heat, the agony. An experience I could never even imagine. They tell me that there never was any such thing as mercy.

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Amy DeBellis is a writer from New York. Her work has appeared in Pithead Chapel, Flash Frog, HAD, Pinch, Monkeybicycle, and others. Her debut novel is forthcoming from CLASH Books in September 2024. Read more at amydebellis.com.

Sue is a drunk. Georgette is a flirt. Fiona wishes she’d never come to sports night, but here they are again, huddled in the kitchen playing Hearts while their husbands—buddies since college—whoop and holler over the football game on the large-screen TV in the living room. Sue slips into the mudroom at Georgette’s house—it’s her turn to host—and fills her glass from the mickey in her coat pocket. Her liver is fatty, and she’ll die in seven years, but she thinks the news articles about zero alcohol being the only safe amount is a conspiracy fueled by tree-huggers and people who actually like yoga.

Georgette pretends she doesn’t know what Sue is up to and rolls her eyes at Fiona. They get a strange enjoyment watching Sue implode, but they’d never admit it, not even to themselves. It makes them feel better about the extra pounds they each carry around their middle, and the cigarettes they sneak at night on their back porches when everyone’s asleep, even though Fiona will be killed by a drunk driver in twenty years, the day after she quits smoking for good. When Sue’s eyes and skin turn yellow, they’ll drop off casseroles and send cute cards to placate their consciences with sayings like Fuck Cancer and You’ve Got This! and only sometimes wonder if they should’ve stepped in.

Fiona wishes she had better friends, but finds it exhausting to keep up with lunch dates, birthday wishes, and Instagram posts. It’s easier to hover along the edge of this little group stitched together by time, their husbands, and convenience. The truth is, Fiona doesn’t like most women. She finds them petty and competitive. She’d rather sit with the men in the other room, but then she’d come off as standoffish, and she’s always prided herself on being polite.

Georgette envies Fiona and how her husband touches the small of her back when he passes her in the hallway. Last month, Georgette kissed him when they went to the basement for more beer, and later wept in the locked bathroom of her own house, hunkered on the cold ceramic tiles, because he didn’t kiss her back.

Later, after the football game is over and yawns pepper conversation, the couples retreat to their own houses and unstitch the evening in minute detail. The women wonder—but never out loud—if this is all there is to their lives, if they’ve reached their true potential, or if their higher self spins somewhere out in the universe, one inch out of reach.

Sometimes, Georgette wakes in the night in her sexless bed and counts the number of Saturdays she imagines she still has left, and fantasizes about finding a lover who’ll cup her face in his palms and kiss her oh, so deeply.

Sometimes, Fiona wonders if Georgette fancies her husband and vows to watch more closely the next time they get together because Fiona knows that what she has could disappear in a second. A millisecond.

Sometimes, Sue wishes somebody—anybody—would notice the clink of bottles in the recycling bin, the extras she squirrels in the back of her closet, or the mini-bottles she keeps in her desk at work, and care enough about her to say stop.

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Dawn Miller is a two-time Pushcart Prize nominee, Best Small Fictions nominee, and Best Microfiction nominee. She is a recipient of The SmokeLong Quarterly Fellowship for Emerging Writers 2024. Her work is published in many journals and anthologies including The Cincinnati Review, SmokeLong Quarterly, The Forge, and Fractured Lit. She lives and writes in Picton, Ontario, Canada.

The Christmas Moon is a moon that appears twice in one December that occurs on Christmas Eve.  The internet tells me that this is not possible because a moon’s cycle is 29 days just like mine (I have always been exact). The impossibility of the Christmas Moon does not stop it from appearing. Its impossibility doesn’t make it more beautiful at all. The man sitting across from me has been beautiful since 1904. The impossibility of his existence makes him more beautiful, I think.

The man from 1904 with beautiful blue eyes has a face for 2020. It’s his chin that makes it a modern face. A chin that I can see because his face is not masked. The pandemic never happened in this walkable town. Once, I thought to ask — I decided that it was best just to let it be. There was never a pandemic, there is an impossible moon, and there is a man sitting across from me that I love.  I have to love him because a magical clock brought him here to me. When you rewind the clock, it brings you to your soulmate. He told me this and I believed him. There is an improbable full moon. There can be a magical clock. If there were no magical clock, we would have both died – dead and alone. It is January 2nd and you can still see the Christmas moon hanging low in the sky. 

He sits across from me picking at his pancakes. They are green and red because they still have food coloring left over from the holiday season. Everyone he loved has been dead for at least 80 years. He hates pancakes. He hates colors. His beautiful blue eyes fill with tears. Sometimes, I get the sense that we weren’t supposed to get to this point. We were supposed to exist in one shining magical moment under a Christmas Moon. And yet, I am here. Sitting across from a man who is pretending not to cry. Men didn’t cry into 1904. Tomorrow, I will tell him that’s okay to cry now. He looks so handsome when he tries to be strong.

I don’t know what comes next. He sleeps on my couch because he won’t share a bed with a woman. I think that he thinks that I am a whore. It is okay. He still loves me. He has to love me because a magical clock brought him here and who is he to deny a magical Christmas Clock? After he finishes his pancakes, we will go to the DMV and try to figure out some things. Maybe, we’ll tell them that he has amnesia and I found him on the side of the road. We can’t get our lies straight anymore. I found myself telling a woman that he is a prince from a small European country and he is my boyfriend. I like the idea that in another universe, I could have been a queen.

I am happy where I am.  I will be happy forever because I found my one true Christmas love. We have been blessed under the Christmas Moon. Time is something that bent its head to me, and I am happy about it. This man is a stranger to me, but I know that he will always be my one true Christmas love. When we talk, we talk about the future in vague terms. He was always a man of the future, he tells me. I don’t have the heart to tell him that the future has already passed. There is a different future for both of us now.  We will be married. We will have children. We will have a mantel where the Christmas Clock will go. The future has been decided.

My future husband sits across from me. When I used to look at his portrait in the hall, I thought that he looked like someone that I would see on the street. I was correct. He was meant to be here with me. We were always meant to be this way. The Christmas Clock decided it and who I am to deny the power of a Christmas clock. Outside the window of the diner, the moon sits in the middle of the horizon. My Christmas Moon, forever.

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Margaret Roach is a writer who lives and works in the Hudson Valley.  She is halfway through a master’s in Library and Information Science. She works as an evening library assistant who does her very best to not lock people in the library. Her work has been published in Bourbon Penn,  Corner Bar Magazine, Had, and Does it Have Pockets. 

The drizzle smothers the campfire, leaving the contestants to scramble to save their marshmallows. We of the producers and crew wonder what Jessica would do. Would she go after Allison? This season’s hero, a twentysomething finance bro, has a type—either Allison, the All-American girl next door, or Jessica, the blond corporate bitch from Seattle. 

We had caught Jessica scoffing at Allison’s dream of becoming a good housewife and mother on Day 1. We watched as Jessica apologized but Allison only nodded as we hid around the corner armed with our phone cameras during the snack break. We deleted the footage from when they played video games together after bonding over their favorite TV shows later after we shooed away the other girls from the rec room for one-on-one footage.

We zoom into Jessica’s marshmallow dripping gloopy tears in the rain. She holds her lighter in the other hand and a wet cigarette flickers in her mouth, and she resembles a Virginia Slims model post breakup. She waves, then gives us the finger. The other girls think the finger was meant for Allison. We pan to their outraged reactions. 

Yesterday, we needed more footage for Jessica’s downward arc to foreshadow the hero choosing Allison over her in the final episode. When we asked them to fight over the final pancake, they were giggling like old friends the entire way through. When it was time for the orange juice, Jessica refused to knock the glass over. We knocked it over for her. Just a gentle flick was enough. The juice bruised Allison’s white sundress with orange she couldn’t wash out, and both their faces made for perfect shots.

The other girls gather around Allison, armed with soaked marshmallow sticks, protecting her from the rain and Jessica. Jessica flings her marshmallow stick with as much force as Marlboro Man punching a cowboy. The stick heads not toward Allison, but towards us. It breaks cleanly into two at our feet. 

You’re the real villains, we think she says, as the rain drowns out her voice.

We pick up the fragments of the stick. We take it back to the producer cabin to get a better shot under studio lighting. 

Once the rain stops, let’s film another take of the campfire scene again tomorrow, we say to ourselves. Let’s get the storyline right this time.

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Tina S. Zhu writes from her kitchen table in NYC. Her work has appeared in Lightspeed, X-R-A-Y, Lost Balloon, Sundog Lit, and other places. She can be found at tinaszhu.com.

A locket with another man’s smile inside. A fistful of forget-me-nots. An inventory of sorrys in your cardigan pocket. Sorry I could never stop after one pint. Sorry I didn’t clap at quiz night when you shimmied, it’s just there were these guys at the bar saying all sorts. A bumper book of 1000 jokes, every page dog-eared. Silk ribbons from dance shoes looped round and round your calves. Kiss jelly fantasy nails. That daft poem I wrote. Sorry I said we’re too old for this, whenever life offered us fun. A Super Auntie mug because tea heals people, even though we all know it was your listening. Our Bertie’s postcards. A sparkly top you wore that evening in the Dales when you’d been told, and I blubbered at the sunset and you said come here you big softie. I’d have put that sunset in if I could. Your posh brooch whose pin pierced your tit as I poked it through your blouse because I wasn’t thinking straight, but you didn’t bleed, corpses never bleed – their hearts are done pumping. Sorry we never got to Greece. You always wanted to go to Greece. And now I’m drunk on Zakynthos, your urn on my lap, watching bits of you ballet into the Ionian, wondering if us humans can ever un-remember things; the feeling of never loving enough, or never loving right, and that shitty little throat-squeeze from another man’s smile.

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Kik Lodge is a short fiction writer from Devon, England, but she lives in Lyon, France with a menagerie of kids and cats. When she is not writing, she is not cooking or running either. Erratic tweets @KikLodge.

Devon’s the new girl running the Duck Pond game, who won’t talk to us. She doesn’t want us knowing she’s here, that she loves funnel cake and uses tampons. We think she’s sweet and wonder how she ended up at a funfair – something we never ask about ourselves.

One by one, we help her out. Jeannette cleans off the slushy a child flung at her. Zara rubs her back whenever she pukes beer. Ro keeps telling her, don’t believe Avery from the Orbiter if he gushes about your starry eyes. We help because that’s what us girls do; we check each other’s payslips and hound at Jerry whenever it’s wrong; we guard bathroom stalls, share ibuprofen, check each other’s breasts for lumps.

Before we leave Maxie lets Devon and her baby brother ride the bumper cars and that’s why she’s here, we learn, ‘cause he wants to be an astronaut and she never got a college fund, how she can’t stand living with her parents who can’t stand her. Here she can save up, send him popcorn-greased postcards and slip a rocket from the prizes. We let her keep this secret and share our own. Ro dulls her darts so it’s harder to puncture the balloons. Zara fingers Maxie on the Zipper. Jeannette thinks we can’t hear her vibrator. How, two towns ago, Avery tried it on Ro again and Maxie almost knocked his teeth out. How we like to chill by feeding each other cotton candy, sugar licked from fingers. How all us girls have a bracelet; we try to match the beads on Devon’s to the solar system, mix in glittered stars. She wears it on shift and at night she bites cotton candy and gives it to us like that, the sugared clack of our teeth.

We’re in the next town for a week. We all notice the girl who spends every evening playing Duck Pond, smiles at Devon against buttery sunsets. She’s got stars tattooed above her collarbones and we know Devon’s look cause it’s the same look between Maxie and Zara, that Ro once gave Avery. Devon laughs and shows off her bracelet, lets star girl touch the stars. Us girls know what’s happening, know how Jeannette wanted Maxie but Maxie wanted Zara to want her and turns out she did, and sometimes Jeanette still cries to Ro. By Friday Devon is quiet again, gets giddy at sunset, picks cotton candy with her fingers and won’t ask us how to blot concealer over a hickey. We don’t know how to help, can’t stop the weekend breezing past. Us girls sweaty, packing our lives into vans and cars, looking for dropped jewellery amongst muddy grass.

Devon doesn’t want us to know she’s crying in gas station bathrooms, at the motel’s ice machine. So we bring her in, us girls sardined together, let her cry in our bathroom, and one by one we love on her. Jeanette unravels her bun, smooths out tangles with her fingers. Zara feeds her funnel cake. Ro tells her about the time she caught Avery kissing in the funhouse and dragged his ass out in front of everyone, almost got fired. We all laugh. Maxie asks about her brother, listens to how Devon memorised the solar system before she left and imagines him asleep on each planet to fall asleep. We tell her about our childhood bedrooms: Ro who misses how moonlight sheened through her pink bed canopy even if it felt like sleeping in a fly trap, Jeanette who used to drink beer out of her dance trophies; Zara who carved blocky dinosaurs onto her vanity, Maxie who shared with her brother until one day they couldn’t and didn’t understand why. We tell her about the fathers who never looked at us or looked too much, the mothers who miss us or the idea of us girls, us dolly ribboned daughters. We all cry, ‘cause this is just like when we learnt about Avery, when Jeannette learnt about Maxie and Zara; when Ro’s granny died, when our parents called too much or stopped completely. Us girls huddled, all beaded together. And when Devon apologises we say don’t, we’ll keep this between us girls. We’ve all seen each other cry on linoleum. We’ve all gotten snot on each other’s shirts.

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Dallon Robinson (he/him) is an autistic and transmasculine writer who loves funfairs even if they give him headaches. His writing can be found in Stone of Madness, Reservoir Road, The White Pube and Popshot Quarterly. He can be found on Twitter/Bluesky/Instagram at dallonwrites.

We recently published Joanna Theiss’s beautiful “This is a Dog.”

Here, we ask her two questions about her story:

1) I love the relationship between the narrator and Brownie — there is a level of trust and love and familiarity, but at the same time, this underlying tension. The narrator chose Brownie because Brownie was the dog no one would choose. Do you think Brownie would have chosen the narrator in return?
If Brownie had been allowed to review the narrator’s résumé, I doubt she would have chosen her. The narrator has never owned a dog, has no idea how to train one, and feeds Brownie kettle corn! Most shelters vet potential dog owners more than Second Chances did in this story because they knew that Brownie was prone to biting, so they foisted her off on whoever would take her. Fortunately for Brownie, the narrator loves her immediately and wants to do right by her. She makes a place for Brownie in her home and, most importantly, provides tenderness and grace when Brownie makes mistakes. I like to think that Brownie recognizes she got a pretty good deal, in spite of the narrator’s lack of experience. 

2) And the ending! Oh, that ending! I adore how much the narrator reveals about themself and their belief in love. What will become of this pair, do you think? Or can you say?
It was love at first sight for the narrator, who cast off all of the perky lap dogs in favor of her. The narrator’s protectiveness kicked in when Brownie bit the neighbor, or possibly before, when she saw how the volunteer at Second Chances didn’t bother to advertise Brownie’s attributes. When Brownie gets sick, the narrator is willing to put her own body at risk to care for her. The love the narrator has for Brownie — and owners have for their dogs in general — is so pure: she loves Brownie regardless of whether Brownie reciprocates that love. In the last lines, the narrator is trying to understand how it might be for Brownie, who is not only an entirely different species than her, but who has also been abused and hasn’t encountered many loving humans. It’s a bittersweet feeling, and I’m glad it came across. 

Because this story is loosely based on a friend’s experience with a foster dog, I imagine a happy future for Brownie and the narrator. I like to think the seriousness of the bite makes the narrator realize she needs help training Brownie, and she finds a sympathetic veterinarian who will treat Brownie’s eye. Once they’re both healed, I imagine them watching crime procedurals and eating snacks (though maybe jerky strips for Brownie instead of kettle corn) for many years to come.