
Things are functioning, but just barely. The AC is set to High, yet we sweat. We hear the fridge struggling, compressor kicking on and off. The lights flicker but hold. There’s no point in calling anyone. They charge us just to look at it, then tell us there’s nothing they can do.
Friends call to talk about their illnesses, their procedures. They call to compare medications. The doctor no longer accepts their insurance, they say. Now there’s only the ER. They wait for hours with the magazines, eyes throbbing, tissue over their mouth.
A man comes to the door, claims to be a neighbor, knows us by name. His daughter is in the hospital, he says, and he needs money quick, but the bank is closed. We’re doubtful, but we give him the cash in our wallets. The detectives tell us we are not the first.
Bands of feral cats prowl the street. We hiss at them, hope to scare them off, but they only stop, stare. Who do you think you are? their look says. You should stay in your homes. The street is ours.
Cars slither by, windows open, stereos thumping. Any delay in the traffic starts the honking.
The things on our screens remind us we’re unremarkable, uninteresting, unattractive: we are not lounging on the beach, we cannot paint photorealistically, our puppies don’t behave adorably – they chew on our best possessions and drop their runny stools. It feels like a metaphor for something.
On the TV, the program never changes: a naked woman dead in a creek. Then the hunt. Many appear guilty. Very slowly the monster is revealed. It’s one of us. Or: young people, the currently beautiful, scheme to win something they all agree is valuable. But is it?
We take walks in the cement neighborhood. Odors of things rotting, vents venting gasses, a cloud of something from a construction site. A man revs an unmuffled car, inky smoke billows from the pipe. We are always dodging scooters. Police gather on corners, looking disgusted. Any inquiry elicits an impatient scowl.
We want to go away, see something else, break the pattern, but we worry about removing the car from its parking space. One of us, upon our return, will have to stay with the vehicle, circle the block for hours waiting for someone to leave. The thought of it is a deterrent.
We dream. We dream of leaving, of becoming citizens of elsewhere, of pleasant places we can afford, pure green places, where we can walk to anywhere, where our spirits can enlarge, our perceptions sharpen, where we feel exalted, and when we die, we die very old, or not at all.
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K. A. Polzin’s stories have appeared in Subtropics, swamp pink, Wigleaf, X-R-A-Y, and elsewhere, and have been anthologized in Best Small Fictions 2023 and the Fractured Lit Anthology 3, and chosen for the Wigleaf Top 50. Polzin was a finalist for The Forge Flash Fiction Competition.






